在忙

此際，寫甚麼都會是太多，寫甚麼都會是太少。

往昔、今日、以後都不好說。

相遇、相識、相知，都留真歡喜。

感激每一位、每一位。

待休息一會和整理過後才再開敝blog。

Dear _______

A few questions that i need to know, how u could ever hurt me so.

I need to know what ive done wrong and how long its been goin on. Was it that i never paid enough attention? Or did i not give enough affection?

Not only will ur answers keep me sane, but i'll know never to make the same mistake again.

U can tell me to my face, or even on the phone, u can write it in a letter, either way, i gotta know.

Did i never treat u right? Did i always start the fight?

Either way, im goin out of my mind, all the answers to my questions i gotta find.

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work." ~Aristotle

some comments on music

Several of my friends had complained to me that the kind of music I listen to put them to sleep.

I think I have a somewhat peculiar music taste. Mainly I think I'm not big on music; so I don't like to spend too much money on it; thus I don't have the time nor the sources to explore different types of music.

If I must categorize the kind of music I listen to, I like traditional jazz and solo piano (mainly George Winston). I also like music that showcase the vocalist, with minimal instruments. (Thus jazz vocal with a piano is the best.) I'm not into bands or loud music. It gives me headache. Rock? No way.

Maybe it's the age... for the past year or two, I have become more keen on exploring new things. Last year, after much contemplation, I bought Damien Rice's "O" (because I love the song "The Blower's Daughter"), and it blew me away! It's not the kind of music that I normally listen to but it's one of the best CDs I have. I listened to it for months. (Really!) (Though some of my friends still think this CD put them to sleep!! *Sigh*)

So, this year, I'm feeling even more adventurous! Two months ago, I bought few CDs that I wanted to explore. One of it is U2's All That You Can't Leave Behind. (Rock! Band!) Why U2? Last year I went to another church for Easter service; they ended the service with the song, "All I Want Is You." It brought me to tears. And later I found out it was U2's song. Plus, I have always had good impression of them (also have grown respect for Bono), so I wanted to try their music.

I have been playing this CD for the past week. My immediate like is, "Stuck in a Moment You Can't Get Out Of." What a horrible thing that is! I'm sure we all have moments like this. I'm barely walking out of one, now.

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one." ~Mother Teresa

What is love?

+ 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 +

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
(New International Version)

愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；
愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂，
不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，
不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，
不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理；
凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。
愛是永不止息。

Love suffers long and is kind;
love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely, does not seek its own,
is not provoked, thinks no evil;
does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails.
(New King James Version)

一直知道，「愛是恆久忍耐」；「love is patient」。然後有一次，聽到是，比較接近原文的譯釋是，「love suffers long」。嗯，要恆久忍耐就是要 suffers long 吧。

從來都知道，愛，不是件容易的事情。我想，我是自私的吧。好怕去愛；怕自己做得不夠好。怕要受苦，就想逃跑掉。但，如果決定要去愛了，那就要盡全力，持守到底，對吧?

這段聖經，熟到可以背出來。但我又真正領悟到多少呢? 今日想起，然後好想自己再細心地一字一字牢記著。

要懂得去愛，才不至於失去所愛的吧。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely." ~Auguste Rodin

where love must start

"It is easy to love the people far away.

It is not always easy to love those close to us.

It is easier to give a cup of rice to relieve hunger than to relieve the loneliness and pain of someone unloved in our own home.

Bring love into your home for this is where our love for each other must start."

~ Mother Theresa

So let our love begin at where i should be

Brave bird

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step." ~Chinese Proverb

Reply an article --- 寂寞

明月樓高休獨倚
一個人大到咁上下
沒有女友或老婆是件好慘的事
因為朋友陪不得你咁多
朋友之間的聯絡
密極有限
其實就算係女友或老婆
都無話時時可以陪到你

有時候呢種寂寞來襲
真係唔係話可以看看書睇睇碟聽聽唱片
做做這些一個人做得來的消遣可以鎮得住
就像感冒吃了藥不再涕淚交橫
可是三四小時後藥力過了
依然如故
就算有身邊人在旁相伴
那種寂寞仍然揮之不去

而我這個慣於孤獨的人
自從端午到離島回來以後
竟然覺得好寂寞
無以排遣的寂寞
無人可訴的寂寞

密切不同於熟絡
熟絡不等於相近
日久多見容或會熟
但不一定近
而近也不一定密切

比如OT完畢放工好累的時候
有熟到爛的人打電話來
你可能反而覺得係應酬
多了一重負荷
而另一個唔係真係熟到咁咩的人
你一聽到他的聲音
可能會雀躍起來
精神為之一振
(或者現實點講
是你很重視他
而這種重視
又只是單向的)

熟絡的人不一定近
近的人不一定密切
即如連續一段短的時間內
他跟你聯絡了幾次以後
就算他近得差不多觸到你的心
你還是有種逼狹的感覺
覺得密過頭
而密切程度
就反映在可舒服地聯絡的time scale上

而我的朋友
time scale都以月計
這就是孤僻的結果

秋風多
雨如和
簾外芭蕉三兩棵
夜長人奈何

寂寞﹐不是因為孤獨。
孤獨﹐是不會寂寞的。

若寂寞來襲﹐不孤獨時比孤獨時更顯寂寞。
當喧譁過後﹐寂寞會更赤裸地站在你跟前。

那時的寂寞﹐會更孤單﹐更難熬。
所以﹐寂寞來襲時﹐會更想孤獨。

寂寞﹐是自身的問題﹐
旁人﹐是不能幫忙的。

喜歡孤獨的人﹐多都不是寂寞之人。
害怕孤獨的人﹐才是寂寞而不自知。

寂寞﹐是不會因人多而離你而去。
孤獨﹐才是把寂寞揮去的好機會。

請不要把兩者混淆了。
不要把寂寞誤為孤獨。

我不喜歡寂寞的感覺﹐
但我享受孤獨一人時。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "It's the things in common that make relationships enjoyable, but it¡¦s the little differences that make them interesting." ~Todd Ruthman

MJ on heaven

一生一世

Dear K, R, M, J

找個一生一世的伴侶固然難，原來一生一世的朋友也不易。

曾經，有過不少推心置腹的朋友。那種親密關係，其時是不會想到，原來是有期限的。曾經很介懷到了期的情誼。但慢慢就明白到，原來大部分的人，在我們生命中都只不過是過客。如果，他們的出現 — 縱然短暫，但 — 還是讓我們對生命有所領悟；那，又有甚麼值得傷感的呢。

如是這，我常這樣對自己說。


或許，有一天，當有人要從我的生命走遠；我會笑一笑，揮揮手；心只存感謝，那人曾陪伴過我的日子。

然而，現實中的我，仍未能如此瀟灑。心中那絲絲憂傷，沒法遮蓋。

原來我，還在乎；還懼怕。懼怕失去那不是一生一世的東西。

Truly yours,

RÊVER

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Life can be pulled by goals just as surely as it can be pushed by drives." ~ Viktor Frankl

冷。靜

如果

四周的空氣是冰
那我們的情
也跟著冷卻成形

如果
你還未懂得冷靜
那我們的情
就永遠也談不成

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Values are like fingerprints. Nobody's are the same, but you leave 'em all over everything you do." ~Elvis Presley