心扉的信

「心扉，我說謊， 我並非甚麼都有， 沒有人可以甚麼都有， 尤其是我， 除卻溫飽，甚麼都沒有， 連自尊都早已失去， 侯書苓雖然待我不薄， 我仍覺得自己像一只小貓， 有些主人，對寵物真好得不得了。 」


或許，

這也是幸福的一種。

只是，

幸福得太過悽愴。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live." ~Flora Whittemore

Edward Lam On Love

我喜歡這本小書。

不論別人怎麼說，

我依舊深愛他的文字。

或許，

當有一天，

愛情成為了一項失傳的美德，

你會發現，

曾經存在的愛情，

比其他一切都動人。




有人會說，我的生活累得賊死，怎麼還不給我「愛情」？ 不止，還要指定某人某時某地，像掛一個電話便預訂得到的晚餐桌，時裝、花束。 但，「愛情」不是天生的服務生，從來毋須為任何一次不周而鞠躬、致歉。 許多年前，G在我的對面說：「沒有人答應過你此生一定可以和愛情遇上。沒有人。」

聞言，但覺毛骨悚然。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "We never know the worth of water till the well is dry.? " ~Thomas Fuller

午夜情

K的妹子身體不適，將網上行Love Music的concert ticket給了K，正好讓我們兩個「大嬸」混在年青人中，重溫八十年代的好歌。

惆悵舊歡如夢。

K，我們很久沒去跳舞了，找一天再來忘情森巴舞吧！

最驚喜的，還是劉美君。


Jay　一張醉臉傻癡癡　Jay　不喜說話像冬天
我　我甘願長相依　決意　一生跟你
Jay　這故事難啟齒　星　星閃過漸漆黑
願　願追逐無止境　隨便講　心裡沒你
Jay　不得已作段落　往日　是命裡安排
我　賣醉後是玩物　滿面　淚踐踏的傷
誰願意身體每處任撫摸　誰願　半點朱唇吻千個
Jay　歡場裡預無真心　Jay　不肯相信亦應知
但　每次見你傻癡癡　我甜絲絲　輕吻著你
我甜絲絲 深愛著你


十多年前的歌，今夜再聽一遍，只有更動聽，感受只能更深。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Never revisit the past, that's dangerous. You know, move on." ~Robert Redford

Dear P

Dear P,

Dear P Dear P Dear P，謝謝你。

由一個累得不成樣子的人，去伴一個情緒低落得潰不成軍的人吃飯。

單是聽著，也為你難受 (暗暗笑)。

你對我的友愛，我總會記得。

我會記得那夜，你將淒苦的我帶出家中，吸一口新鮮空氣，陪我不著邊際說上數不清的話題。

我原以為我會哭的，但將眼淚忍了這麼久，已不再在乎發洩。

情願提起精神，努力開懷地笑。

一段日子不見，你身上的衣服，由深藍變成淺藍。

明明白白是一種明亮的顏色，但你的樣子，卻疲憊得好像那種淺藍快要塌下來。

喏... ... 該怎樣形容呢？

在餐廳淡黃的燈光下，看到你眼角紅紅，累得連眉梢肩膀也掛下來，就像一件被隨意搭在洗衣籃上，縐成一團等待用威潔33好好清洗一遍的恤衫。

請原諒我的用詞，這實在很可愛惹笑的情境。

生命有些時候，的確又長又悶，活脫脫是齣傷它悶透的百集婆媽電視連續劇。

所以，更要先嚐甜頭。

所以，明知你不情願，也硬要你吃一口泰拉蜜沾。

找到了你的嗜好沒有？

在找到之前，請做我的補習老師吧。

假若你能將我調教好，你便會相信，世上真有奇蹟。

Best Wishes,
ADORER_RÊVER

給自己的情書

素未謀面的朋友因一首歌認識了，除了我想要的那首歌外，還特意送了另一首歌給我 ──《給自己的情書》。

我對他說我明白他的用意。

沒有聊過天，沒有見過面，只憑藉我的記下的一點一滴，他已斬釘截鐵的說：「對，你不夠愛自己。」

是的，沒人會相信我愛自己，連我也懷疑有否愛過自己。

請不要灰心　你也會有人妒忌
你仰望到太高　貶低的只有自己
別蕩失太早　旅遊有太多勝地
你記住你髮膚　會與你慶祝鑽禧
啦啦啦　慰藉自己　開心的東西要專心記起
啦啦啦　愛謢自己　是地上拾到的真理

寫　這高貴情書　用自言自語　作我的天書
自己都不愛　怎麼相愛　怎麼可給愛人好處
這　千斤重情書　在夜欄盡處　如門前大樹
沒有他倚靠 歸家也不必撇雨

請不要哀傷　我會當你是偶像
你要別人憐愛　先安裝一個藥箱
做甚麼也好　別為著得到讚賞
你要強壯到底　再去替對方設想
拋得開手裡玩具　先懂得好好進睡
深谷都攀過後從泥濘尋到這不甘心相信的金句


在努力愛人之前，

不如將同樣份量的愛和熱情送給自己，

讓自己感受愛。

謝謝你。

我明白了。

點滴

當我們問別人為甚麼不愛自己，

其實這跟「點解放假先o黎落雨」一樣，

是無法解釋的。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "The secret of happiness is to admire without desiring." ~Carl Sandburg

肉餅

問題仍未解決，但找到了一個令情緒平伏的方法 ── 學做菜。

Auntie是廚藝高手，廚房是她的聖殿，閒人勿進。

理所當然，除了煮一丁麵會人人讚好之外，我甚麼都不會。

Auntie有感自己健康欠佳，怕將來我孓然一身沒有住家飯吃, (as my mum isn't in hong kong) 終於o.o願意教我做菜。

她說：「由最簡單的肉餅開始學吧！可以學怎樣拿菜刀，又可以練手力。」

昨天我做了冬蟲草肉餅，今天則是咸蛋蒸肉餅。

記著，力不到肉餅不好吃。

用碎肉機攪出來的豬肉，永遠呆板難吃。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Everything should be made as simple as possible--but not simpler." ~ Albert Einstein

生舊叉燒好過

Recently, I went to何文田甚麼峰的club house宴會廳，attended一對小姊弟 (4歲和1歲) 的生日派對。

我從未見過一個這樣頑劣的4歲小妹妹。0,0

未輪到她玩遊戲輸了拿不到合心意的禮物聽到其他小朋友被讚賞，她的反應一律是尖叫推人跺腳哭鬧打人 I won't play I hate you。(she speaks English at home with her family.)

換了一條又一條的白紗裙，都要不甘心的將它撕破弄髒。

小小人兒竟然可以將5磅大蛋糕上的巧克力全部搶去做「獨家村」... ...



真係生舊叉燒好過 :P

English as she is spoke

It has been said by someone other than me that no language that pronounces the word colonel “kernel” is perfect. In spite of some flaws, English is a great language. It isn’t easy, though. I write a lot of English and never stop running into problems. (Actually, sometimes not :D)

A recent newspaper story said, “The teachers asked the students to read the papers they had written.” It isn’t clear who wrote the papers-the students or the teachers.

It’s easy to slip into redundancies. “Purchase price”? What other kind of price would it be? People speak of “the end result,” as if some results were not the end.

How come someone who writes a play is a playwright and not a play-writer?

We use a lot of ungrammatical short cuts, which seem OK to me. We say, “I’ll be home tomorrow.” No one bothers to say, “I’ll be at home tomorrow.”

When I write a sentence with a quotation in it, I put the period or the question mark that ends it after the last quotation mark but editors often change this. They put the period or question mark inside the final quotation mark. My question is, “Why?”

In Don Marquis’ delightful stories about archie and mehitabel, archie the cockroach typed everything lowercase, without any capital letters. He couldn’t use capitals because, as a small cockroach, he had to drive headfirst at the keys to make them hit the paper. He couldn’t simultaneously hit the key he wanted and the “caps” key, so everything archie typed, including the united states of america, looked like this.

Archie had an excuse, but there’s no excuse for e-mail being spelled without capital E. (For years I have objected to the policy of many newspapers not capitalizing the word “president” when it refers to the President of the United States. Maybe the policy was established for newspaper written by archie the cockroach.)

Written English is at its best when it’s plain and simple. Henry David Thoreau said, “If one has anything to say, it drops from him simply and directly like a stone to the ground... he may stick in the points and the stops wherever he can get a chance.”

I always liked that but Thoreau used “one” the first time, then a few words later in the sentence he drops “one” and goes to “him.” Once you start with “one,” you have to finish with it and I wouldn’t ever start with it. I must have sounded less pretentious in Thoreau’ s time. Writing was more formal.

It’s wrong, but I routinely use the word “like” as a conjunction in place of “as” both in writing and speaking. “I write like I speak,” not “I write as I speak.”

There are 10,000 phrases that may not be good grammar but which are too useful to ignore, such as, “He wants out.”

I don’t like to use “whom.” “Who” suits me just fine for any occasion. I seldom use the subjunctive, either. I write, “If I was home...,” not, “If I were home.”

There are English words that can be used to mean a dozen different things, even though the spelling never changes. The word pretty is an example. We all know what it means when someone says, “She’s pretty.” The meaning of that word becomes complex, though, when you say, “She’s pretty pretty.” It means she isn’t beautiful, just fairly pretty. And it would be hard to explain to anyone who spoke another language what we mean when we say, “He’s sitting pretty.” (I seldom start a sentence with an “and” like that :P)

It would be hard (difficult) to go to the United States from someplace like China (even Hong Kong *-*) without any knowledge of English and have to start learning it. How long would it be before you understand all the nuances of “pretty”?

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "It is foolish to postpone enjoyment of your ordinary life until you are more successful, more secure, or more loved than you are today.?" ~Timothy Ray Miller

守望杜田

街上人來人往，讓你牽掛過的有幾人？

讓你的心在某刻感動過的有幾人？

並不多，對嗎？

四周那麼多人，都在匆匆忙忙都在拿著電話不知說甚麼。

站在其中，忽爾泛起無色無相的寂寞。

你抬起頭，看到他微笑步近，你笑了。

你知道，這人就是你生命中的魔術師。

魔術師也是凡人，你看著他為工作煩惱，你看著他將皮鞋東一隻西一隻隨處亂放，你看著他毛躁發脾氣罵人，你看著他的頭髮變得稀疏，你看著他的縐紋隨年月加深，你看著他身上慢慢有了一個救生圈。

你明明看著他老了憔悴了，但你總是歡喜。

因為只要他在你身邊，你的一顆心便會平安著地。


多想給你一個家　還想給你泡杯綠茶
多想整晚傾聽你心事　聽你說無間道好嗎
東邊西邊都有個杯子　襪子不可歸家
想起你一天到晚四處奔跑　回家休息好嗎
害怕天雨會將你沖走 害怕海嘯會將你捲到　天邊海角
叫我往哪兒把你帶回家
害怕美女會給你太多　我願意將一切都簡化
來到我身邊擁抱我吧 讓我快樂好嗎

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance." ~Oscar Wilde

Things to do today

There are some things I’ve been meaning to do. For one thing, I’ve been meaning to make a list of the things I mean to do.

Try to be nicer to people I don’t like.

Try not to dislike so many people.

Sharpen all my pencils.

Do better job reading the newspaper.

Make bread in the bread maker I bought three years ago and never used.

Lose eighteen pounds by not eating ice cream.

Either wear them or take some of the old shoes and old clothes in my closet to Goodwill.

Go to see my doctor about that problem I’ve been having which goes away when I go to my doctor.

Fix the leg on the dining room table.

See the movie that’s going to win all the Oscars before it wins them and is too hard to get into.

Put a new washer in the nozzle of the shower so that one errant spray doesn’t get me where I don’t want to be got.

Organize my life.

Thank Blanche for the oranges she sent at Christmas.

Get a haircut.

Read a book. Finish the book I started two years ago.

Look at some of the television shows I’ve saved on type to look at later.

Buy new undershirts and socks to replace the ones with holes in them.

Learn how to type “Chinese”. ( This has been on my list for ten years now, during which time I’ve written so many Chinese essay with a “handwriting pad”.)

Get to bed earlier.

Find out how to program the VCR so I can tape a program I want to see that’s going to be on a week from next Tuesday at 10:30 because I’m going to be out that night.

Redo my tattered old personal telephone and address book, eliminating all the names of people I don’t talk to anyone because I don’t like them, because they moves away, or because they died.

Try to be the kind of person who really knows what he’s talking about more often.

Oil the hinges on the closet door in the bedroom that squeaks.

Stop during so much coffee.

Call several old friends I haven’t called.

Buy a supply of stamps to put on the penny postcards I’ve bought over the years that need more postage than when I bought them.

Get more exercise.

別問為甚麼

我有一位朋友叫CC，她在澳洲留學，和男友同居於他父母名下的物業四年多。不過， 她每月有交租予男友，租住屋內的其中一間房，但沒簽租約。男友是澳洲白人，跟CC一樣，都是大學生，「電車男」一名，課餘只躲於家中玩電腦。

最近一年，CC察覺男友性格有變，對她越來越冷淡，每日早出晚歸，對行蹤含糊其詞。CC明白他已變心，對他不存寄望。同時，她也忙於寫畢業論文準備回港，沒空細想搬家/分手問題。然後… …

個多月前，CC的男友忽然回家匆忙收拾行李，說家中出了事，要回居於另一城市的父母的家數天。他走得太急又不肯說明原因，她隱隱覺得有點不妥。怎料男友一走便音訊全無，手提關機email不覆。

上星期，他終於回覆email，沒有任何解釋，只說父母決定出售物業，週日將前來處理賣屋事宜，要她盡快搬走。事出突然，CC知道後很震驚，可是她沒簽租約，無法依據租約條文拒絕搬走。最令CC困惑的是，男友一走了之，連學校課堂也缺席。後來，她跟他的父母交涉，他們最後同意給予她一個月的時間搬家。

Q1. CC一向很尊重男友父母，但經過此事，覺得他們很絕情。問題是，她大有機會再見到男友父母，做不到若無其事又不想得失他們，畢竟她是住客他們是屋主。可惜，她沒有別的住處可以暫避。那CC該以甚麼態度面對他們？如他們不友善對她，怎辦？

Q2. CC由始至終都不明白男友為何走得那麼突然，她懷疑男友有了第三者但不能確定。無論如何，她很想問男友父母究竟發生了甚麼事，為甚麼他不敢回來？她覺得他們欠她一個交待，但又不知應否問及如何問。

男友父母不是你的父母，他們沒有生你養你，現在還對你那麼絕情，你幹嘛要尊重他們？如果因為你是住客，所以要對屋主客氣，CC小姐，你有交租的呀，是你給錢他們賺呀，大晒的。如你真的沒地方可以暫避，請將證件現金首飾跟身，貴重雜物寄存別處，以防他們回來隨時換鎖。當男友父母透明好了，若他們對你不友善，吵架囉，再嚴重點，報警囉。

無論原因是甚麼，總之，你的男友不要你了，他與父母夾手夾腳要趕你走了，夠清楚沒有？甚麼原因也改變不了你已被遺棄的事實，何必送上門像個傻瓜不停問為甚麼再被人奚落？他們不欠你甚麼，也無須交待甚麼。唯一要交待的是你自己，交待為甚麼你愛自己不夠多。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Prompted by love is greater than prompted by fear." ~ Rabbi Simeon ben Eleazar

又病了

又病了，額角有點燙，整個人都迷迷糊糊。

我討厭生病的自己，病倒了，便覺寂寞便會軟弱。

想起一篇羅冠蘭的訪問 ──

羅冠蘭一再強調，一個人的生活「不慘」，但，不寂寞嗎？ 「會，尤其是病倒或失意時，最想有個膊頭依靠一下，但明知沒有這個可能，就要強迫自己愛惜自己。出門口著多件衫，不著涼便不會病倒，不病倒便不會寂寞。把工作安排得滿滿，也不會寂寞。」

關於樂壇的心事

1.陳曉東真是一位好歌手
2.Babyshambles 真是非常naive Pete Doherty 真的很討厭 NME 是不是沒有人好捧了
3.我好賞識好想識好想識好想識My Little Airport
講完拜拜

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow come and go like the wind. To be happy, rest like a giant tree in the midst of them all." ~Buddha

關於自己的１3件事

關於自己的事。

大家tag來tag去，由blog到facebook，從16件變成25件。

逐一記下，然後發現你的尋常，其實是別人眼中的刁鑽。

好的，就隨便寫下13件關於自己的事。


1. 覺得自己是醜小鴨，但永遠不會變成天鵝，除非整容，大執果種。

2. 不吃牛肉，本來十分嗜血，例牌medium rare，自某天起，quota忽然用完。

3. 沒有試過暗戀，不明白如何可以無端白事暗暗愛上一個人。

4. 不穿任何platform shoes，好醜樣的義肢，ferragamo都係咁話。

5. 睡眠時間一般為上午7時到下午3時30分，如果被朋友吵醒，我會即時爆粗問候其全家，睡醒後再致電問候多一次。

6. 怕悶的人要住鬧市要樓下有7-11有翠華，我愛銅鑼灣。

7. 看餐牌時先看dessert menu，每天都要有甜品到肚。

8. 起床後一定要摺被，亂成一堆的床舖讓我感覺不衛生及有蚤。

9. 情緒化挑剔性急奇怪固執懶散沉悶偏激一無是處。

10. 錢，真的好重要，即使有情飲水飽，都要交水費。

11. 不擅詞令，交際應酬零智商，木獨常被誤解為西口西面。

12. 長期失眠，平均兩日睡一次，沒有stilnox我會死。

13. 極度需要獨處時間及空間，贊成同居但分房睡。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "The frog does not drink up the pond in which he lives." ~Sioux proverb

從零食物語到世界末日

我跟大多數的人一樣，正餐可以不吃，但零食呢，絕對寧濫莫缺。 開心的時候，買點零食錦上添花；不開心的時候，更需要零食來安慰自己。 君不見街上的零食店、傳統涼果店、大型新式超市的零食架，黃昏後的時段總是塞滿人？ 近來市道低迷，人心惶惶，零售業推出各式優惠救亡，但那些大減價大劈價，還是不夠吸引。 昨天逛吉之島十元店，連它都漲價至十二元，我快要失去這唯一的購物樂趣了。 手頭未見寬鬆，更要擔心明天，我以為，這時候更需要「抗壓靈藥」—— 零食，來拯救蒼生，誰知… … 我錯了。 那天，踏入零食物語，明明是周五的放工時間，怎麼會這樣的呢？不是寥寥數客，是空無一客。 大家不是要買多些零食，用以渡過周六周日煲劇看雜誌的時光嗎？ 我四處張望，找尋之前在屈臣氏買的價值 $10.5的大粒提子軟糖，啊！竟然 買一送一，$12兩包。 在另一零食架上，發現日本版樂天熊仔餅減價至$13兩盒，隨手放進購物籃。 然後，又買了一包$16的粟米條。 五件零食，總數只是$41，已覺得有點便宜，誰知cashier的妹妹還送上一包City Super有售，價值$16的軟糖。 頃刻之間，置身於零食物語內的我，懷疑世界末日即將降臨。 天國近了，我們應當多吃零食。

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Each day we make deposits in the memory banks of our children." ~Charles Swindoll

寧靚莫叻

有日，我與朋友A先生於網上閒聊，他在MSN問我：「喂，你之前咪幫朋友K先生登咗個徵友廣告既，佢搵到女朋友未呀？」

我的答覆是：「未呀，你係咪有好介紹先？」

他就說有一位「好女仔」現正單身，可以介給K先生認識，嘗試撮合他們。

那位「好女仔」的條件如下：

‧三十歲
‧努力上進
‧專業人士
‧事業有成
‧畢業於一流大學
‧碩士畢業
‧樣貌端正
‧不求高攀只求條件相近
‧渴望結婚

我越聽越心寒，不斷皺眉搖頭，聽完那些do re mi條件，無需徵詢K先生的意向，已代他決定—— 即是REJECT。

親愛的，這女人擁有如此優秀條件，就算不是目空一切，大概有一定程度的要求，當然，是above level那種。

朋友A先生還慌她唔死加多一句：「個女仔真係無嘢喎，性格好謙虛。」

嘩，咁仲死！

其實，有幾多男人需要這樣的超級女友？我的機械人女友受歡迎，是因為她聽聽話話，外型是F cup綾瀨遙，不是因為master degree囉。

無論於任何情況下，靚女總是較叻女受歡迎。

要不是的話，為甚麼我每次說有single & available的女孩子可以介紹給男性友人，有叻女有靚女，講完之後，所有男人都是問我要電車女王Tina的電話號碼？

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happiness without action." ~ Benjamin Disraeli

你連20元都不值

我有一位朋友，空姐啦當然，還是貌美那種。

最近，她跟一位機師date緊，即處於約會階段，進展不俗。

不過，她有少少疑惑，就是跟機師外出的時候，一切使費都是AA制的，連一個二十五元的茶餐也不例外。

最重要的一點是，那位機師永遠不會接送她回家，即使他有車代步，由銅鑼灣送她回土瓜灣的家也不肯。

原因是：過海要俾廿雞紅隧賺，佢覺得好貴。

我這位空姐朋友想知道… …

Q1. 她覺得AA制有點說不出的奇怪，這個想法會否好港女呢？

Q2. 她應否與這位機師繼續約會呢？

我的答案是：「不」，和，「不」。

A1. 首先，港女又如何？別人認為你港女，你又不會少條頭髮，或出糧時少了一個零。說回AA制，真的要讚讚香港男生，他們習慣約會時連女方的費用也一併付清，說真的，這是他們好風度，「俾晒錢」不是必然或老馮的。AA制，其實對雙方都公平，只是香港女孩子很多時候覺得有點奇怪，她們情願你俾一餐我俾一餐這樣的方式來約會。

A2. 完全不應該，他拒絕的原因，不是明早有flight又或是你日光日白回家不構成安全問題，是「過海要俾廿雞紅隧好貴呀」。看到沒有，你的性命比不上一張二十蚊紙那麼矜貴，你連廿雞都唔值呀呀呀﹗﹗﹗你在他的眼中，最多只值$19.9，他還要補多一毫子，才夠錢買壹周刊。

如果我愛上阿嘉

如果海會說話，如果風愛上砂，如果我生活無憂，不需要擔心失業會捱餓會睡到街上去，失戀時可以用往後所有的時間當作悠長假期，但仍然付得起屋租水電雜費，我會愛上電影《海角七號》裏的阿嘉，甚至窮一生去找這樣的一個男人來談戀愛。阿嘉那戀慕的神情，熱熾得教人灰飛煙滅也沒所謂。明明知道這人性格飄忽毫不可靠，當他唱着「妳會不會把妳曾帶走的愛，在告別前用微笑全歸還」時，可以看到他眼內的深情，但同時感覺到他的殘忍。總有一天，他會辜負那個本來很愛很愛的女人，原因就是忽然不愛了。


然而，現實是失戀過後，我只曾放過一整個夏天的長假。某天，在回首時終於懂得，假若幸福的標準，是世俗認定的一夫一妻生兒育女白頭偕老，那麼，阿嘉不必也千萬不要擁有這樣的下場。愛上如此的一個人，不要奢望改變得了他。結局往往是，數年後，一個尋常日子，外出後回家，卻發現雙人床屬於自己那半的位置，躺着另一個女人，哭着狠狠掌摑他，二人拉扯爭吵，將家中的一切東西亂擲，從此不相往來。又或是，回到家中，他不見了，心中有數他不會回來的了，沒再見沒解釋，從此生離。有些愛情，必須暴烈必須有着恨意，才會莫失莫忘。愛上一個壞人，注定要傷心，但感激用心愛過。他既能賜你快樂，明知終會遍體鱗傷也甘心。

Our Poor Are Rich

We should help the poor because we're rich and they aren't but then after we've helped them, it seems to me we have the right to ask a lot of people of the world, who resent the success of our civilization, who they haven’t done more to help themselves.

Men and women from the poorest, most underdeveloped countries make their way to the United States and prosper in our society. Professional and business people from economically retarded countries come here and frequently distinguish themselves. Individuals are not responsible for national failures. So who is?

Almost all of Europe, South America, Russia, China and Japan have working economies, stable governments, police forces, a judicial system, rods and public services like water and electricity. At the same time, dozens of countries in other parts of the world do not have the amenities of civilization. The United Nations has estimated that half the people on earth love in poverty.

If it weren’t for television, which occasionally shows it to us, we wouldn’t understand poverty at all. Poverty to us means a handful of dysfunctional homeless people in our town. Few are in danger of starving or freezing to death. Real poverty means whole countries whose people not only don't have jobs they don’t have an organized society, houses, food clean water, places to go to the bathroom. Forget bedrooms, two-car garages, swimming pools, refrigerators, central hearing and air conditioning. They don’t have houses.

Poverty anywhere in the world is a concern to us because we ‘re nice guys and we’re pained to see hungry and unhappy humans anywhere. We are also concerned because it’s only human of the world’s poor to resent our prosperity, and we don’t like being hated.

You look for reasons why so many countries are what we euphemistically call”backward”. Many of the most depressed countries are under the heel of some oppressive potentate who keeps himself rich and the people poor. However, it isn’t easy to determine whether a dictator in a poor country is a cause or a result of nation’s problems.

It’s a mystery why the people living in the warmest parts of the earth are often the worst off. You’d think that not having to expend money, energy or resources staying warm would be an advantage but that doesn’t seem to be so. Africa is the warmest continent but it has many of the least successful societies.

Warm weather should give the people of Africa and the Arab countries a head start on prosperity. Even in the United States, for no discernible reason, the South was for years the poorest and most backward part of the country. In the past 50 years, the South has developed into one of the most prosperous parts of our country. Maybe it’s coincidence, but the change seems to have been concomitant with the development of air conditioning. Maybe we ought to raise the money to air condition the earth. It would be cheaper than war.

While I’m not comfortable using the term “Arab” because the definition of the word is vague, many Arab countries are not among the world’s most successful. If it were not for oil, they’d probably be destitute because they haven’t created any kind of economy for themselves independent of that natural resource.

There was a time in history when the Arab would led all others in the knowledge of geometry, astronomy, chemistry and medicine. Europeans in the Middle Ages learned Ages learned a lot of what they knew of science from the Arabs. They world has not learned much from Arab countries in recent centuries.

I don’t know how it can be done, but it’s important that we find out why the people of some parts of the world prosper while others live lives desperately devoid of pleasure or the basic necessities of the good life. You wonder why the poor cling to life as tenaciously as do those of us who have a life so clearly worth clinging to.

weird building

Street Fashion

"All my clothes are from Wunder except the jeans vest and the shoes. The KTZ trousers are handy because they have ready-made holes.

My style stip for the summer: 10 cm heels. Men can make sandals out of their old leather shoes."

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved." ~William Jennings Bryan

畫皮

《聊齋誌異》其中一個短篇故事──《畫皮》，內容講述一位書生被女鬼的美色所迷，道士勸阻不果，最終發現女鬼原是披畫人皮化成極色，但為時已晚，書生被女鬼挖心已亡，幸得妻子相救，方能死而復生。多年來，《畫皮》常被改編成電影或電視劇集，可見其寓意跨越古今歷久不衰，女色即禍，家散人亡。不過，我所理解的故事寓意是，女鬼尚且要夜夜努力畫皮才能迷惑眾生，何況是活生生的女人？果真是「呢個世界唔化妝，邊有 selling point」。


早前在網上論壇看到一則轉載自台灣《蘋果日報》「單眼皮變大眼妹/美妝撇步公開/網友驚艷根本是易容術」的生活新聞，芳齡十八的台灣妹妹，不滿意自己的單眼皮，五年前就開始化妝，誓要變大眼美眉。她將自己的化妝流程 step by step拍下來放上網，從素顏到完妝無一遺漏，出來的效果美艷得讓我禁不住講粗口。用上全套才港幣三、四百的化妝品，每天花上三小時化妝，就能由醜婦變辣妹，好像是像化算的事。但童叟無欺是三小時喎，一個尋常學生如她大抵要天天雞啼那樣早起床畫皮，認真的，我佩服她的恆心。

是日金句

Me: "without dating, life is boring."

Mr.Mahtani : "without health, you are lifeless."

u got message

日光透過淡綠的窗簾照進房間內，睡在床上的你半夢半醒，覺得陽光有點刺眼，臉頰上有和暖的感覺，大抵已接近中午了。你緩緩睜開雙眼，悠悠然伸懶腰打呵欠，這天跟之前的每一天沒有分別。下床走到客廳，抱起正在沙發上發呆的小貓，放眼這個與男友共同居住了一年多的愛巢，你仍然覺得溫馨，想起今早他上班前輕吻你的臉，嘴角掛上了微笑。抱着小貓回到床上，拿起手提電話欲致電男友告知你的掛念，但看到短訊收件箱顯示「你有一個新訊息」，打開一看，有這樣的一句──「 time to break up, just pack and go」。沒有大學程度的你也看得明白，男友不要你了，要你立即執拾細軟，從此離開他的生命。


你沒有想過試探這是否惡作劇短訊，「 just pack and go」映入眼簾的一刻，直覺告訴你，被遺棄已是塵埃落定的事實。當然，你有很多的不明白，有很多的問題想問，明明昨夜還與你一起甜蜜弄晚餐的男人，明明昨夜還與你溫存的男人，今天關上門離家之後，就忽然說分手了，甚至同日安排了鎖匠換門鎖，着工人清理舊物，要你措手不及。一個月後的今天，你只慶幸那天沒有留在原地，飛快收拾好重要的身外物，迅速離開。別人都稱讚你是個理智伶俐女子，只是這次看錯了人，你不打算深究，但想起那段日子，難免心酸。

無眠夜

失眠的人和從不失眠的人，總覺得，甚難做得成朋友，因為生活作息全然不一樣。若是兩位失眠人相遇呢，則急不及待交換 MSN，好讓每個無眠夜，總有在線的人慰藉這顆寂寞的心。當失眠的人抱怨三天沒睡過一覺，明明煙酒茶啡全不碰，晚上十一時就關燈關電視上床，生活上全無壓力，但就是睡不着。最後，從不失眠的人語帶輕蔑下定論：「你睡不着只因工作不夠累吧」，將你定性為異教人士，你有否衝動想由 IFC天台將他推下去？我有。


晚上十一時晚間新聞音樂響起，關上電視與房燈，在睡枕和被單噴上 relaxing pillow spray，靜待墮入夢鄉。然後，一小時過去，我知道電視在重播《陀槍師姐》；然後，兩小時過去，是《今日 VIP》時間；然後，四小時過去，開始播粵語殘片了；然後，到了早上八時，天色全亮，街上的車聲人聲益發刺耳，整夜輾轉反側的我，狠狠吞下安眠藥帶着一股憤慨入睡。許多個夜深，失眠的我會下樓散步去，銅鑼灣除了茶餐廳與麥當勞，只得漫畫茶坊仍在營業。世上有否一間失眠之友同樂會，讓我們在細碎的爵士樂聲下傾訴無眠的苦？

20. 40. 60.

從報紙上看到，汪明荃與羅家英終於在美國拉斯維加斯註冊結婚，從此挽手同行，以後風雨同路，接下來的人生路有你也有我。

當然，作為旁人的我們，無法得知他倆的感情可曾動搖過。但這二十年來，即使是負面多於正面的娛樂新聞，大多數時候，不過是記下他倆互相扶持共同經歷的高低起跌，沒有誰被記了大過讓感情終生帶著遺憾。

婚照上的羅生羅太笑容一致舉止從容，我只想到四個字——「情比金堅」。是的，患難與共的二十年流逝，試問還有甚麼可以阻撓二人？連帶一條艷紅大絲巾，也一分為二裝飾了他倆的大日子。

二十年是一段很長很長的日子，一個牙牙學語的嬰兒，在二十年後，大抵已嘗過初戀之味。二十歲的小戀人精力充沛，一夜不睡相約上山看日出然後再上學是閒事，我們只會懷疑，那樣年輕，怎知道甚麼是愛。

四十歲的時候，第二個二十年過去，談過幾次戀愛，經歷過人生跌宕，漸漸明白自己想要的，又開始掌握戀愛的節奏。但人到中年，事業上需要拚搏，日常又有十萬樣事要兼顧，想愛不一定能全情去愛。

愛到六十，大半世已成過去，或會慨嘆美人遲暮，又沒有足夠的時間廝守，正因如此，才可不顧一切去愛。反正，明天再也不用上班，一天二十四小時，只管抓緊快樂。每一個能夠表達愛意的動作說話，通通不會錯過。千帆過盡，終於學懂了如何去愛。Qianfan had to do, and finally learned how to love.

dont let me go

I say things that I don’t mean
You look at me like I’m crazy
And baby, sometimes I am
There’s a side of me that wants to run
As soon as I get close enough to love,
To touch it with my hands

I start feeling smothered
Start to head for cover
‘cause the only thing
I know about this feeling
Is eventually it hurts like hell
I know that pain a little too well
But I think you’re different somehow…

Baby don’t let me go
My restless side might put up a fight

I know I wanna stay with you
But my feet are set on walking out
My hands are shaking reaching for the door
I hate this fear that teases me
It makes my heavy heart believe
That I just shouldn’t be here anymore

Baby, hold me down
Please, put your arms around me
Right now I need to feel like I am safe
‘Cause my memories are haunted
But you’re all I’ve ever wanted
Don’t give me have a chance to break away

Close that door that I swung open
With those stupid words that fell out of my mouth
I wasn’t thinkin’ straight at all
The only thing I know for sure is
This is where I belong

immortal

Street Fashion

"I'm wearing an Erotokritos jacket, a vintage pullover, Cheap Monday trousers, a vintage Samsonite suitcase and KG shoes from London. I have lots of different frames to suit every style. These ones are vintage.

Lately my style has been changing from granpapaish into more simple, quality and good fabrics."

Thought for the day

Thought for the Day: "Rejoice in your trials here; they save you hereafter." ~ Talmud