收拾房間的時候，
在舊物中找著黎堅惠的文字 ──
「愛情是沒有方法，它要發生自然會發生，勉強無幸福。我們可以做的，也只不過是準備自己，令自己更可愛更值得愛。When you are a better person, you will deserve someone better.」
已忘記了在甚麼時候將這抄寫下來，
只覺於混沌之中，
忽爾來一記當頭棒喝。
從去年中秋以來，
做了很多傻事，
流了很多眼淚。
不知道自己哪裡來這樣的勇氣，
不斷逼迫別人，
讓別人難受讓自己難過讓彼此難堪。
下定決心了，
將時間收回己用，
多點面對陽光，
積極去過生命中的每一天。
學習上該是一個好開始，
正努力適應。
未來一年，
每個美好的星期六和日，
將用來學習法文。
愛情，
有它獨立的命運，
不想再苦苦勉強。
我只想自己變得更好變得更可愛，
因為我愛我自己。
2009年3月30日 星期一
A letter to ...
My dear xxx,
There's a few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, a sms, a mail either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, a sms, a mail either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find
Love
ADORER_RÊVER
2009年3月25日 星期三
just tell me
I wanna know what you're thinkingThere are some things you can't hideI wanna know what you're feelingTell me what's on you mind
Here i am in silenceLooking round without a clueI find myself along againAll alone with you
I can see behind your eyesThe things that i don't knowIf you hide away from meHow can our love grow?
I know I could break you downBut what good would it do?I could surely never know what you say is true.
What you're feeling.
Tell me what's on your mind.
Street Fashion
"I'm wearing a second hand fur, bag and scarf, Diesel jeans customized by Outi Pyyand shoes by Ash.
I think style is everyday art which at best can be really entertaining.
I couldn't live without my boyfriend jeans. I love to find second hand gems."
I think style is everyday art which at best can be really entertaining.
I couldn't live without my boyfriend jeans. I love to find second hand gems."
Thought for the day
Thought for the Day: "Speak the truth, but leave immediately after." ~Slovenian proverb
2009年3月21日 星期六
小男友
小農政府十二敗政，特區最受害的是哪一個階層？答案是二十多歲的香港女子。
經濟大衰退，小男生們都像一窩剛生下來母狗就因難產死亡的小狗崽：一隻隻身上雖然還熱呼呼，吠的聲音也很大，卻沒有自立謀生的本事，看著教人憐愛，苦不可指望牠看守家門。
即使他離開校門，喜孜孜找到第一份新的工作，起薪點七千五百元。
一個精明的女朋友心底一盤算——他要把大學學費還給這個愚蠢的政府，每月一千元；他從沙田第一城到中環上班，交通費一千元；他自己吃飯穿衣、繳付手提電話的月費，須款至少兩千五；他是一個孝子，每月給阿爸和老媽子孝敬孝敬，再吝嗇也得一千。
每月剩下兩千，剛好夠在UA金鐘看兩場鴛鴦卡座的荷里活片，外加Cova一頓紅酒的燭光晚餐。但是，女人很快就到了人老珠黃的一天。
他老實上進，不按摩也不賭馬，你很欣賞他的一份出污泥而不染的品格。你給他三年的Deadline。希望他盡量少嚕囌，想想大家的將來。見家長之後，擺酒可以從簡，大會堂註冊，開展一個穩定的未來。
想到這裡，一盤帳可不由得這樣算法了：買一層四百呎的小居屋，總要付十多萬元的首期，每月供款數千。還要北歐傢俱、冰箱冷氣機，以及打點不盡的柴米油鹽，把他瘦削而青春的一層皮剝下來煎掉，也沒有幾滴油為你們的小家庭下新鍋。卻又不忍就這樣就趕走他。
他是一個很好的男仔，你是他的初戀，他也希望是唯一也是最後的一場。從來不認識富家公子，你暗自遺憾，但當你在娛樂版看見富家公子們即使是牛津留學回港度假，搭上的竟然是大陸女星章子怡，你又覺得沒有這種檔次和品味的男朋友不是太大的損失。
畢竟，你與眼前這個樸實的小男友，在翠華餐廳一起分享一份腿蛋三文治的時候，你覺得很快樂很快樂。 但是，我們會有將來嗎？你在心底不斷地問他，只是難啟齒。
他凝視著你：「你的嘴角有一抹蛋黃呢，不要動。」他俯身過來，用紙巾替你輕輕地拂掉。這一刻你心中確實很溫暖，雖然他永遠摸不透一個活在當下的香港少女的心事——需要愛情，也需要一份安全感，而不幸地，安全感的基本保障，還是經濟。
他牽著你的手一起走到櫃檯。他親自埋單。只不過是三十六元八角罷了，由他來付款。這一刻你覺得他「豪」得很可愛。當然，如果帳單和他的薪金數字，都合乎比例地多加一個「0」就更好。
但你欣賞他明白身為一個男子漢的義務和承擔。天長地久都不太重要，只要你們還擁有現在。你依偎在他肩側，走出玻璃大門，步向一個現實得很虛幻的世界。
經濟大衰退，小男生們都像一窩剛生下來母狗就因難產死亡的小狗崽：一隻隻身上雖然還熱呼呼，吠的聲音也很大，卻沒有自立謀生的本事，看著教人憐愛，苦不可指望牠看守家門。
即使他離開校門，喜孜孜找到第一份新的工作，起薪點七千五百元。
一個精明的女朋友心底一盤算——他要把大學學費還給這個愚蠢的政府，每月一千元；他從沙田第一城到中環上班，交通費一千元；他自己吃飯穿衣、繳付手提電話的月費，須款至少兩千五；他是一個孝子，每月給阿爸和老媽子孝敬孝敬，再吝嗇也得一千。
每月剩下兩千，剛好夠在UA金鐘看兩場鴛鴦卡座的荷里活片，外加Cova一頓紅酒的燭光晚餐。但是，女人很快就到了人老珠黃的一天。
他老實上進，不按摩也不賭馬，你很欣賞他的一份出污泥而不染的品格。你給他三年的Deadline。希望他盡量少嚕囌，想想大家的將來。見家長之後，擺酒可以從簡，大會堂註冊，開展一個穩定的未來。
想到這裡，一盤帳可不由得這樣算法了：買一層四百呎的小居屋，總要付十多萬元的首期，每月供款數千。還要北歐傢俱、冰箱冷氣機，以及打點不盡的柴米油鹽，把他瘦削而青春的一層皮剝下來煎掉，也沒有幾滴油為你們的小家庭下新鍋。卻又不忍就這樣就趕走他。
他是一個很好的男仔，你是他的初戀，他也希望是唯一也是最後的一場。從來不認識富家公子，你暗自遺憾，但當你在娛樂版看見富家公子們即使是牛津留學回港度假，搭上的竟然是大陸女星章子怡，你又覺得沒有這種檔次和品味的男朋友不是太大的損失。
畢竟，你與眼前這個樸實的小男友，在翠華餐廳一起分享一份腿蛋三文治的時候，你覺得很快樂很快樂。 但是，我們會有將來嗎？你在心底不斷地問他，只是難啟齒。
他凝視著你：「你的嘴角有一抹蛋黃呢，不要動。」他俯身過來，用紙巾替你輕輕地拂掉。這一刻你心中確實很溫暖，雖然他永遠摸不透一個活在當下的香港少女的心事——需要愛情，也需要一份安全感，而不幸地，安全感的基本保障，還是經濟。
他牽著你的手一起走到櫃檯。他親自埋單。只不過是三十六元八角罷了，由他來付款。這一刻你覺得他「豪」得很可愛。當然，如果帳單和他的薪金數字，都合乎比例地多加一個「0」就更好。
但你欣賞他明白身為一個男子漢的義務和承擔。天長地久都不太重要，只要你們還擁有現在。你依偎在他肩側，走出玻璃大門，步向一個現實得很虛幻的世界。
I wanna see U again
I wanna see you again.
I don't care where and I don't care when.
I wanna see you again,
'cause this beginning will have no end.
Bring your whips, bring your chains.
We can exchange names.
I wanna see you again.
I feel a feeling since I don't know when.
I wanna see you again,
so you can know you have a friend.
You're so passive.
I'm filled with wrath.
We could take a bath.
Oh, there's talk of the lights in Causeway Bay
and hearts intwining high above,
and if, frankly, we'll see things my way,
we will climb the heights of love.
I wanna see you again.
It doesn't matter where or when.
Perfect love.
Cast out fear.
Let me buy you a beer.
I wanna see you again.
I don't care where and I don't care when.
I wanna see you again,
'cause this beginning will have no end.
Bring your whips, bring your chains.
We can exchange names.
I wanna see you again.
I feel a feeling since I don't know when.
I wanna see you again,
so you can know you have a friend.
You're so passive.
I'm filled with wrath.
We could take a bath.
Oh, there's talk of the lights in Causeway Bay
and hearts intwining high above,
and if, frankly, we'll see things my way,
we will climb the heights of love.
I wanna see you again.
It doesn't matter where or when.
Perfect love.
Cast out fear.
Let me buy you a beer.
I wanna see you again.
Street Fashion
"My vest is from a thrift store in San Francisco, April77 jeans are from Beamhill, the hat is Comme des Garçons for H&M and the sneakers by Diesel.
I'm waiting for the summer time, because it allows me to wear my most worn-out clothes and daring combinations. Winter challenges the imagination.
Italian Vogue inspires me."
I'm waiting for the summer time, because it allows me to wear my most worn-out clothes and daring combinations. Winter challenges the imagination.
Italian Vogue inspires me."
2009年3月20日 星期五
beauty
早前好友訴說，
猜想自己因為不美麗而成為愛情上的loser。
美麗的女人當然賞心悅目，
可是，
一個人除卻美麗，
合該有其他東西值得appreciate吧！
世上不美麗的女人，
甚至是醜陋的女人，
數目遠遠超乎我們可以預計的。
我才不相信她們每一個都是loser。
美麗的女人，
生活上的好處自然較平凡人多一點。
得到多一杯free drink；
多一點笑容；
多一點被追求的機會。
然而，
愛情講的總是運氣。
可以的話，
不妨將自己打扮得漂亮些。
不為愛情，
只為令自己高興。
猜想自己因為不美麗而成為愛情上的loser。
美麗的女人當然賞心悅目，
可是，
一個人除卻美麗，
合該有其他東西值得appreciate吧！
世上不美麗的女人，
甚至是醜陋的女人，
數目遠遠超乎我們可以預計的。
我才不相信她們每一個都是loser。
美麗的女人，
生活上的好處自然較平凡人多一點。
得到多一杯free drink；
多一點笑容；
多一點被追求的機會。
然而，
愛情講的總是運氣。
可以的話，
不妨將自己打扮得漂亮些。
不為愛情，
只為令自己高興。
cant wait for tomorrow
I know you're standing there
Trying to say the words
You took so long to prepare
But I laugh, pretending I don't see
Cause I don't wanna hear
What you got to say to me
Can't it wait until tomorrow
Before you bring me the showers
Can't it wait until tomorrow
Give me 24 more hours
I 've seen it coming for quite sometime now
Don't you know I've tried to stop it
In every way I know how
And I know it's hard for you
As it is for me
So listen to my heart
Begging desperately
Trying to say the words
You took so long to prepare
But I laugh, pretending I don't see
Cause I don't wanna hear
What you got to say to me
Can't it wait until tomorrow
Before you bring me the showers
Can't it wait until tomorrow
Give me 24 more hours
I 've seen it coming for quite sometime now
Don't you know I've tried to stop it
In every way I know how
And I know it's hard for you
As it is for me
So listen to my heart
Begging desperately
Street Fashion
"I bought my jacket over 10 years ago in Bangkok. I like to wear etno style clothes and shop often at second hand markets. I think socks are an important part of the outfit. These socks are from Stockmann. My favourite outfit is an Afghan dancing dress that I bought at a museum in Amsterdam in 1997."
Thought for the day
Thought for the Day: "Not all readers are leaders, but all leaders are readers." ~Harry S. Truman
2009年3月18日 星期三
愛情
作為中學生的我，試試解答潘兄的問題：
1)「愛情」的定義是甚麼？我們該如何界定它？
愛情就是愛情，它不是畢氏定理。 無色無味無形態，根本無法界定。
2)你確定受得了「失戀」的衝擊？你確定自己能接受失敗嗎？一子錯，滿盤皆落索，預計勝出乃人之常情，然是否也該做好接受失敗的準備？
我們沒有大能，怎能預知未來？ 做人不可以因噎廢食，怕失戀就不愛戀。 如果事事堅持準備充足， 到時候，只怕一生都已成為過去。
3)愛情固然可以使一個人「上進」，但，是否同樣可以有反效果？
愛情上的得失，只佔人生的一部分分數。 若有人以此作為「墮落」的藉口，應該拿去回收再造。
4)兩人相處其實是一個很複雜的問題，要貴乎「坦誠」，但又要顧及對方的感受；是否要將所有的事都跟對方說？還是要給予對方一點私人空間？說深層一點，就是如何在二人世界內保持自我，也可容納對方的自我。
最重要的是here and now。 事事翻舊帳，沒意思。 保留空間，才能保持新鮮感。 保持距離，才能保留實力。
5)對方的好處，你固然樂於接受；然而，對方的壞處，你是否能夠同樣予以包容？
不必包容。 一是不假辭色，二是視而不見。
6)如果你的另一半對將來沒有計劃，而你對你倆的未來有著無限憧憬，你會怎樣做？
另覓人選。
7)最後一道問題：你覺得自己有沒有足夠的EQ及理性去面對感情問題？
身邊有那麼多人，家人、朋友、社工、心理醫生…… 要足夠的EQ及理性來幹甚麼？
1)「愛情」的定義是甚麼？我們該如何界定它？
愛情就是愛情，它不是畢氏定理。 無色無味無形態，根本無法界定。
2)你確定受得了「失戀」的衝擊？你確定自己能接受失敗嗎？一子錯，滿盤皆落索，預計勝出乃人之常情，然是否也該做好接受失敗的準備？
我們沒有大能，怎能預知未來？ 做人不可以因噎廢食，怕失戀就不愛戀。 如果事事堅持準備充足， 到時候，只怕一生都已成為過去。
3)愛情固然可以使一個人「上進」，但，是否同樣可以有反效果？
愛情上的得失，只佔人生的一部分分數。 若有人以此作為「墮落」的藉口，應該拿去回收再造。
4)兩人相處其實是一個很複雜的問題，要貴乎「坦誠」，但又要顧及對方的感受；是否要將所有的事都跟對方說？還是要給予對方一點私人空間？說深層一點，就是如何在二人世界內保持自我，也可容納對方的自我。
最重要的是here and now。 事事翻舊帳，沒意思。 保留空間，才能保持新鮮感。 保持距離，才能保留實力。
5)對方的好處，你固然樂於接受；然而，對方的壞處，你是否能夠同樣予以包容？
不必包容。 一是不假辭色，二是視而不見。
6)如果你的另一半對將來沒有計劃，而你對你倆的未來有著無限憧憬，你會怎樣做？
另覓人選。
7)最後一道問題：你覺得自己有沒有足夠的EQ及理性去面對感情問題？
身邊有那麼多人，家人、朋友、社工、心理醫生…… 要足夠的EQ及理性來幹甚麼？
Cant wait to see U
When I go, will my mother know?
Will my brother know I tried?
Will the government send them my old pens
And the letters I tried to write?
Will my dad as he cries all night
Will he still believe we're right?
As I'm drinking blood from a silver cup
With these men who chose to die
When I go will my mother cry?
Will my brother want to die?
As I'm drinking up an amber stout
With this god I've heard so much about
When I go will you be ashamed?
Will you still recall my name with pain?
Can't wait to see you hang
See you hang
Will my brother know I tried?
Will the government send them my old pens
And the letters I tried to write?
Will my dad as he cries all night
Will he still believe we're right?
As I'm drinking blood from a silver cup
With these men who chose to die
When I go will my mother cry?
Will my brother want to die?
As I'm drinking up an amber stout
With this god I've heard so much about
When I go will you be ashamed?
Will you still recall my name with pain?
Can't wait to see you hang
See you hang
Street Fashion
"My godmother gave me the hat this weekend. The leather jacket is a couple of years old and the 80's Mötley Crüe t-shirt used to belong to my stepmother.
My normal look is tight jeans and leather jacket.
I think Joe Perry from Aerosmith has a cool style."
My normal look is tight jeans and leather jacket.
I think Joe Perry from Aerosmith has a cool style."
Thought for the day
Thought for the Day: "Some books are to be tasted, others to be swallowed, and some few are to be chewed and digested." ~Francis Bacon
2009年3月12日 星期四
So blue without U
After what I said, I'm sorry
Can't believe I said we're through
Don't know what got into me
Guess I'm just a crazy fool
Saw you standing by his side,
Giving him your sexy smile,
Lost my temper
Lost my mind
Guess I'm just a jealous guy
Oh, baby I'm so blue without you
Forgive me
'Cause I don't wanna lose you
And I don't know what to do
I want you back I'm so in love with you
If I don't see you again
I'll regret it till the end
So I hope you'll understand
I just wanna be your only homme
So I sit here and pray
Get on the phone
Call me today
Can't believe I said we're through
Don't know what got into me
Guess I'm just a crazy fool
Saw you standing by his side,
Giving him your sexy smile,
Lost my temper
Lost my mind
Guess I'm just a jealous guy
Oh, baby I'm so blue without you
Forgive me
'Cause I don't wanna lose you
And I don't know what to do
I want you back I'm so in love with you
If I don't see you again
I'll regret it till the end
So I hope you'll understand
I just wanna be your only homme
So I sit here and pray
Get on the phone
Call me today
Thought for the day
Thought for the Day: "Everyone is entitled to be stupid, but some abuse the privilege." ~Anonymousa
2009年3月10日 星期二
Street Fashion
"We've had similar clothes since we met in the first grade. We like colourful and comfortable clothes and Japan. Now we're wearing jackets from MicMac and jeans from H&M. Most of our jewellery is from Blippo store. Next we're going to make kigurumi outfits."
Thought for the day
Thought for the Day: "Generosity lies less in giving much than in giving at the right moment." ~Jean de la Bruyere
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